Be With Me

I watched Be With Me just now with Russell. Very moving. I was reminded of gong gong and popo and how he was actually sad when popo passed away. The gong gong in the show liked to cook, and cook very well too. Totally like gong gong lor...it made me really sad cos i remember popo and how she was around. somehow i think he actually had alot of things that were left unsaid. especially when he cried, i remembered the time that gong gong cried too.

i dunno lah, but it just so provoking. I wish i could somehow make him feel better. i get the feeling that he's still hurting, and hurting everyday too. I just wish he could be like the gong gong in the show; he gained reconciliation and rebirth in the end. i just hope i can help him get that too.

the two lesbians in the show represented the purest kind of love. it didn't matter that the two people involved were both girls, you could just feel the purity and it was totally untainted. i hope that one day i can find that as well. it's just a trying period for me now, many mixed emotions and alot of stuff all thrown. to fit in or not to fit in... that PURE LOVE just seems so distant for me...sigh...i hope i experience it at least once in my life...

so tonight i experienced alot of emotions. tears came often, but i didn't allow them to flow, i just told myself that the scene didn't last long enough for the emotions to really flow, but of course, that's just an excuse lah.

okay lah, gotta go to sleep, late liao....good night all....