Boy, was it a shocker...I'll try my best to take it in my stride, but of course I'd be lying if I said it did not affect me. It's just a whole new pile shit that I need to deal with. While I spent most of the evening being mopey and calling some of those close to me to get them to hear my 'story', it never occurred to me that all of this had happened before. And amazingly, it was also because of (or at least linked to) the same person.
This morning as I was packing my bag, I was trying to just think about the whole thing, and then it struck me...like a bolt out of the blue I guess...I had an epiphany (I've always wanted to use this word, and now I got the chance...WOOT!)! It suddenly struck me as something extremely karmic in nature...coming back to me, in this manner.
And because of you[being who you are to me] there is no way I can avoid it, no way I can 'hate' it into non-existence, and no way I can 'pretend' it into oblivion.
It is here to stay, and I have to deal...again (well, sorta...very much SORTA)
It hurts, but I am glad that you told me. It wouldn't have worked any other way. I will try talk to you again, when I've sorted out my thoughts (don't worry, definitely before you go back lah...^_^). There are still things I need to say to you, and I hope that you will listen when the time comes. I think we may need to go to my secret place, and then, with no one but us, I will tell you what I need to say.
It really is amazing...I never understood/experienced it until yesterday...the whole idea of '风水轮流转-ing'.
Whew...it's super scary...
PS: Thank you for your honesty. Thank you.
PS2: Thank you for listening to me...again...I know it's getting bothersome, and I am so grateful to you for being here still. Hahaha...You really are my SUPERMAN! (trust me, EVERYONE needs a superhero in their lives...okok, maybe not 'NEEDS', but it sure helps a lot!)
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