So I'm lying in bed just thinking about my conversation with J earlier and I guess I ought to start getting my act together. I mean these are things I already know and have thought about doing for awhile.
I think the strange thing about me is that I tend to do many things with others in mind and I rarely pay attention to personal things that need paying attention to.
So yeah... It's about high time for a home improvement project and I want to make it work. Time to draw up a plan and a schedule and break it down room by room.
I do want to change the physical space around me and a small part of me wants J to be impressed and to be proud of me. I never thought I'd say this but I think I've found a rare gem in J and he actually has the unique ability to push me without me feeling the need to rebel or be defiant.
He makes me want to clean up my act even more (I make it sound like I've a terrible life at the moment but I actually don't... Though I could do with slightly more drive. I am SUPPOSED to be able to push myself to greater heights of course, being the life coach and all that, ya know) and I know I will be better because of this.
April shall be my month and I will start making important changes to my life. As much as I want to say that I want J to be a part of it, I know in my heart that this has to be MY project (maybe he can help paint something or change a light bulb or two).
So I'm gonna make it work.
Gosh... I should totally be sleeping. Argh!
Good night (or morning)! :)
and thanks J for being so ah-MAzing...
No comments:
Post a Comment