thinking....

Sitting in front of my computer now...

I was randomly keying names of people from my past (in school mostly, still young mah...most of my past is there) into the Friendster search engine. Then I realised that all those people whom I'd met before all still existed. However, I have no idea what was going on in their lives. For some of those people, I didn't even feel the want to know what was going on...

Was it the past feelings of anger and betrayal? Not really, they don't feel as intensely as before...time really is powerful...dulling all in it's relentless surge forward...ploughing down all that is in it's path...leaving no room for happy/sad/angry/betrayal....all these trivial matters crumble in the face of Time...

I was just thinking whether I should drop these guys a message. Like to let them know I still exist. Then I realised, what's the point...they're probably not ready I guess, and then awkwardness would wash over us all, then it would be a 'hi-and-bye' meeting, and it would amount to nothing. Besides, there are more pressing matters at hand which I need to handle...so just reminisce about happier/carefree times, and let it past...to energise that which is your present...and that is all there is to it.

Really...