Dear Folks,
I will be away from the 24th of Feb - 2nd of Mar! I will be uncontactable for the most part, but if you really need to contact me, just drop me an SMS yah? I will try my best to reply you.
Take care and have a great mid-term break! ^_^
Love,
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Sunday, February 03, 2008
a reminder...
It was such a dark and scary place, but I knew it was somewhere within me. It was cold, and I could not see anything. I opened my eyes and looked around, there was nothing. I heard a voice that told me to go deeper into the darkness. I did.
As I looked into myself, I found a tiny light. It was like a flame, or a round glowing orb, or a wisp of glimmering smoke, or something...it was just a light. I realised that was me. It was my light. So small, so weak, so fragile...never knew it looked like that. Strange.
I then looked up, away from my light, and all there was darkness. Wait...there was something more. There were dark shapes around me, in front of me, all around me. They looked slightly humanoid in nature, but I wasn't sure. I squinted, searching for a confirmation of sorts, but all I could make out were fuzzy lines, and auras almost non-existent.
Then an epiphany struck me! They WERE people, and they were all dead. There was no light in them...all of them...dead, zombies that you see in movies...vacant, empty, emotionless...it was scary...VERY VERY SCARY.
I was filled with a sadness, and I did not know what to do...with the amount of work I had done, and the things I had seen, my light was only that much...that weak, that fragile...and these people totally have no light, no hope, nothing. How was little old me going to be able to ignite their light?
I don't know...it hurts, it's daunting, it's freakishly hard...I don't know...
A voice near my light asked, "What are you willing to sacrifice to fulfill your dream? Everything?"
Another voice near it answered in a trembling (yet with a determined undertone) voice, "Yes."
As I looked into myself, I found a tiny light. It was like a flame, or a round glowing orb, or a wisp of glimmering smoke, or something...it was just a light. I realised that was me. It was my light. So small, so weak, so fragile...never knew it looked like that. Strange.
I then looked up, away from my light, and all there was darkness. Wait...there was something more. There were dark shapes around me, in front of me, all around me. They looked slightly humanoid in nature, but I wasn't sure. I squinted, searching for a confirmation of sorts, but all I could make out were fuzzy lines, and auras almost non-existent.
Then an epiphany struck me! They WERE people, and they were all dead. There was no light in them...all of them...dead, zombies that you see in movies...vacant, empty, emotionless...it was scary...VERY VERY SCARY.
I was filled with a sadness, and I did not know what to do...with the amount of work I had done, and the things I had seen, my light was only that much...that weak, that fragile...and these people totally have no light, no hope, nothing. How was little old me going to be able to ignite their light?
I don't know...it hurts, it's daunting, it's freakishly hard...I don't know...
A voice near my light asked, "What are you willing to sacrifice to fulfill your dream? Everything?"
Another voice near it answered in a trembling (yet with a determined undertone) voice, "Yes."
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Of Ponies, Kway Chap & Menotti
I had a great time with John tonight. We were having one of our usual meet ups after a long while type thing, and I was a little late. By the time I arrived at Raffles City, he was already at the bed linen section of Robinsons. Now, I have always found it slightly weird for two guys to be together at the bed linen section of any departmental store. The salespeople just tend to stare and whisper a lot...but then again, I don't really care...at some strange level, the attention is sorta nice. Wahaha.
So I reach the wagons where there were many designs of bed linen on sale, and spot John almost immediately. He was fawning over this particular design with ponies on them (the packaging actually said 'Trojan Horses' but the idiot insisted on calling them ponies), where the ponies came in many different designs. There were rainbows one, grassy ones, ones that looked like sheep...well, you get the idea....I think. So John goes on and on about how the ponies are so pretty and cute, and how he wants to get them for his room in Newcastle and I sorta joined in the fun and talked really loudly about how I hated the ponies and the banter between us (I'm sure) scared the sales boy a little. He probably has never seen two guys talk so much about bed linen...wahaha..
All that fun over and done with (Mr Siow spent $100+ on the bed linen..sheesh), we headed to get some hawker food cos' he's leaving and I think he wanted to stock on local Singaporean food before he leaves for about a year or so. We had Kway Chap and a side of roasted duck meat too. Shiok lah... it was the stall near Bugis. Not too bad...only spent $11.70 between the two of us.
After that, we head down to Menotti's for drinks and dessert because I'd never been there before (to the horror of Mr John Siow). According to him (or his expression at least), my not having been there was apparently quite blasphemous. Ah well, I totally fell in love with the place. We had hot chocolate, lemon meringue tart thingy, and this mousse thingy called Canolli. Freaking good sia...everything was exceptionally yummy. I know the desserts all go for half price after 9pm, so all of you reading this, get ready for invitations to join me at this splendid place soon yeah?
To John: I had a great time tonight. Please take care when you are over there, and don't forget what we talked about yeah? You will be fine, more than fine. Gambatte ne!
So I reach the wagons where there were many designs of bed linen on sale, and spot John almost immediately. He was fawning over this particular design with ponies on them (the packaging actually said 'Trojan Horses' but the idiot insisted on calling them ponies), where the ponies came in many different designs. There were rainbows one, grassy ones, ones that looked like sheep...well, you get the idea....I think. So John goes on and on about how the ponies are so pretty and cute, and how he wants to get them for his room in Newcastle and I sorta joined in the fun and talked really loudly about how I hated the ponies and the banter between us (I'm sure) scared the sales boy a little. He probably has never seen two guys talk so much about bed linen...wahaha..
All that fun over and done with (Mr Siow spent $100+ on the bed linen..sheesh), we headed to get some hawker food cos' he's leaving and I think he wanted to stock on local Singaporean food before he leaves for about a year or so. We had Kway Chap and a side of roasted duck meat too. Shiok lah... it was the stall near Bugis. Not too bad...only spent $11.70 between the two of us.
After that, we head down to Menotti's for drinks and dessert because I'd never been there before (to the horror of Mr John Siow). According to him (or his expression at least), my not having been there was apparently quite blasphemous. Ah well, I totally fell in love with the place. We had hot chocolate, lemon meringue tart thingy, and this mousse thingy called Canolli. Freaking good sia...everything was exceptionally yummy. I know the desserts all go for half price after 9pm, so all of you reading this, get ready for invitations to join me at this splendid place soon yeah?
To John: I had a great time tonight. Please take care when you are over there, and don't forget what we talked about yeah? You will be fine, more than fine. Gambatte ne!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Friday, January 25, 2008
It's been awhile...
Hi guys...it's been a long while since I posted anything. What to do...my desktop 'exploded' and for those who know...my laptop is about as reliable as, well...my desktop that exploded. Needless to say, I have been struggling to survive, and am doing pretty well so far. My mom has the intention to buy a new laptop for me (dunno why also, but she offered to pay half, and to pay the full cost first...amazing stuff). This is the one I'm currently eyeing (yes yes, I know it's a Dell, but somehow I seem strangely attracted to it):
It's supposed to be a gaming laptop lah...so I can finally return to my GuildWars! Wahahaha....anyway, we should be going shopping this weekend. Wish me luck!
Alright, here's what I really wanna blog about.
It's almost time for my 2pm lecture. School just seems so...well, boring, when I'm doing something meaningful. But I know I need to get my foundations well set up before I go running all over the shop. Yeah, I am tired, and I'm learning how to function with low amounts of sleep and what not, but hey, if I grow bigger and better with this experience, who knows what's to come? I shall continue with my lectures in school, and if I can create a few miracles along the way, why not? Hahaha.
I'm loving it... ^_^
Dell XPS M1530
It's supposed to be a gaming laptop lah...so I can finally return to my GuildWars! Wahahaha....anyway, we should be going shopping this weekend. Wish me luck!
Alright, here's what I really wanna blog about.
For those of you who know, I've been involved in writing a book (www.pickmeup-book.com), and being Chief Editor hasn't been easy. It's really been a stretch for me, and all of it for charity. Yesterday, while I was assisting at the ECI headquarters in Joo Chiat, the Make-A-Wish Foundation CEO came down to pay us a visit, and wanted to see what we were doing and to thank us for our efforts.
As she shared with us how she got into this foundation, and described the process of 'wish granting' for the kids with life-threatening diseases, I really began to see how my efforts are going to pay off, and I began to see how this book is going to benefit these children who do not have the ability to make wishes happen for themselves. She shared one story with us.
11 year old, Joseph has leukemia, and has to stay in the hospital most of the time. Because of this, he longed for a laptop, so that he could stay connected to the world, and his friends via the Internet. Simple wish to grant yeah? Well, the whole point about wish granting is to create a magical experience for the kid in question. Now, the volunteers who had been working with Joseph also know of his love for cooking, but he never has the opportunity to do so. So one of them took the initiative to collaborate with Four Seasons Hotel, and arranged for their head chef to have a private cooking session with Joseph.
So they took Joseph to the hotel, led him through the grand entrance, and all the way to a function room where there was only a mobile kitchen top set up, and a dining table. As Joseph entered the function room, he was amazed to see his parents (who were supposed to be working), two of his best friends, and his medical social worker who referred him to Make-A-Wish. They then handed him his very own apron, name tag, and chef's hat, and immediately the head chef worked with Joseph,. teaching him how to prepare a four-course meal for his parents. He did so, and then sat down to dine with them. It was a magical experience for him...
And they presented the laptop to him as well, of course...
This story really touched me. I was imagining what it would be like to be Joseph, having one of my greatest dreams/wishes/fantasies granted. Amazing stuff...I'm glad that we chose the Make-A-Wish Foundation as our beneficiary....it's just so freaking cool...
That was enough to keep me going for the rest of the race. Thanks Debbie for sharing that amazing story...
As she shared with us how she got into this foundation, and described the process of 'wish granting' for the kids with life-threatening diseases, I really began to see how my efforts are going to pay off, and I began to see how this book is going to benefit these children who do not have the ability to make wishes happen for themselves. She shared one story with us.
11 year old, Joseph has leukemia, and has to stay in the hospital most of the time. Because of this, he longed for a laptop, so that he could stay connected to the world, and his friends via the Internet. Simple wish to grant yeah? Well, the whole point about wish granting is to create a magical experience for the kid in question. Now, the volunteers who had been working with Joseph also know of his love for cooking, but he never has the opportunity to do so. So one of them took the initiative to collaborate with Four Seasons Hotel, and arranged for their head chef to have a private cooking session with Joseph.
So they took Joseph to the hotel, led him through the grand entrance, and all the way to a function room where there was only a mobile kitchen top set up, and a dining table. As Joseph entered the function room, he was amazed to see his parents (who were supposed to be working), two of his best friends, and his medical social worker who referred him to Make-A-Wish. They then handed him his very own apron, name tag, and chef's hat, and immediately the head chef worked with Joseph,. teaching him how to prepare a four-course meal for his parents. He did so, and then sat down to dine with them. It was a magical experience for him...
And they presented the laptop to him as well, of course...
This story really touched me. I was imagining what it would be like to be Joseph, having one of my greatest dreams/wishes/fantasies granted. Amazing stuff...I'm glad that we chose the Make-A-Wish Foundation as our beneficiary....it's just so freaking cool...
That was enough to keep me going for the rest of the race. Thanks Debbie for sharing that amazing story...
It's almost time for my 2pm lecture. School just seems so...well, boring, when I'm doing something meaningful. But I know I need to get my foundations well set up before I go running all over the shop. Yeah, I am tired, and I'm learning how to function with low amounts of sleep and what not, but hey, if I grow bigger and better with this experience, who knows what's to come? I shall continue with my lectures in school, and if I can create a few miracles along the way, why not? Hahaha.
I'm loving it... ^_^
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Pick Me Up Book!!!
http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/322497/1/.html
http://pickmeupbook.wordpress.com/
Check it out guys! And support our cause!!!
(I think I look terrible on TV...should've styled my hair...LOL)
http://pickmeupbook.wordpress.com/
Check it out guys! And support our cause!!!
(I think I look terrible on TV...should've styled my hair...LOL)
Saturday, December 01, 2007
BLP
I will be away from the 1st - 4th.
If there's anything urgent, contact me on my mobile ok?
Gonna miss all of you...
*excited and scared*
LOL
If there's anything urgent, contact me on my mobile ok?
Gonna miss all of you...
*excited and scared*
LOL
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Quick Rant
The SAF administration officially sucks. I just received a call-up for Jan 2008. Now this sort of thing is not supposed to happen because it's right smack in the middle of term time. From my understanding, this sort of thing never happens because the SAF plans all of their ICT trainings and what-not such that it all coincides with the major term breaks of the local universities.
So nevermind all that, I go ahead and apply for eDeferement via the NS Portal website, and there I find out that it is severely inadequate. It assumes that anyone who is applying for deferment is doing so because of IHL/industrial attachments. This is fine, but it's SUPER STUPID when you look at the electronic form, and realise that the entire thing is actually skewed towards those with industrial attachments. I mean, come on, how am I going to fill in the section that says. "Date of return from overseas attachment" when one, my attachment may be local, and two, I night not even HAVE an attachment. And this is a MANDATORY FIELD mind you...freaking stupid. %%*(&^$(&^#$#^
Anyway, I figured something out, and sent in the application anyway, and yesterday I received an SMS stating that I needed to fax in supporting documents. I was like, WTF? What supporting documents? The SAF has called me before to check up on what I am currently doing, and I've reported my status to them dutifully. Well, I called the wonderful helpline, and the extremely unhelpful (and might I add, 'dead') woman flatly told me that I got called up in Jan because I did not apply for IHL (Institute of Higher Learning). I was like, but don't you guys already know I am in NUS i.e. an IHL?
She went on to explain (after I told her that I was not aware that there was such an avenue to apply for IHL status) that this information is not given out to NSmen, and that only upon asking will such a request will attended to. This got me really riled up. Not only is there no connectivity between the universities and SAF, there is also no inter-connectivity between the admin branch which manages NSmen, and the freaking helpline. If there are so many grey areas within an organisation, it is no wonder there are so many disgruntled people out there.
I wonder if I will get slapped with anything for lambasting the SAF, but I quite honestly am very unhappy with the administration. Now I have to go and find a letter that says I am in NUS, so that I can prove my current status as a student of the university...preposterous!
ARGH!
I hate stupidity...hate it hate it hate it...
So nevermind all that, I go ahead and apply for eDeferement via the NS Portal website, and there I find out that it is severely inadequate. It assumes that anyone who is applying for deferment is doing so because of IHL/industrial attachments. This is fine, but it's SUPER STUPID when you look at the electronic form, and realise that the entire thing is actually skewed towards those with industrial attachments. I mean, come on, how am I going to fill in the section that says. "Date of return from overseas attachment" when one, my attachment may be local, and two, I night not even HAVE an attachment. And this is a MANDATORY FIELD mind you...freaking stupid. %%*(&^$(&^#$#^
Anyway, I figured something out, and sent in the application anyway, and yesterday I received an SMS stating that I needed to fax in supporting documents. I was like, WTF? What supporting documents? The SAF has called me before to check up on what I am currently doing, and I've reported my status to them dutifully. Well, I called the wonderful helpline, and the extremely unhelpful (and might I add, 'dead') woman flatly told me that I got called up in Jan because I did not apply for IHL (Institute of Higher Learning). I was like, but don't you guys already know I am in NUS i.e. an IHL?
She went on to explain (after I told her that I was not aware that there was such an avenue to apply for IHL status) that this information is not given out to NSmen, and that only upon asking will such a request will attended to. This got me really riled up. Not only is there no connectivity between the universities and SAF, there is also no inter-connectivity between the admin branch which manages NSmen, and the freaking helpline. If there are so many grey areas within an organisation, it is no wonder there are so many disgruntled people out there.
I wonder if I will get slapped with anything for lambasting the SAF, but I quite honestly am very unhappy with the administration. Now I have to go and find a letter that says I am in NUS, so that I can prove my current status as a student of the university...preposterous!
ARGH!
I hate stupidity...hate it hate it hate it...
Time Waster
Another fun way to waste time! Wheee...
(I like what I read here though...sounds good yeah? HAHAHA)
(I like what I read here though...sounds good yeah? HAHAHA)
Lets101 - Free Online Dating
Sunday, November 18, 2007
Pictures of November
Here's a quick photo update of the things I've been doing this month:
Seafood Paradise from Billy Bombers!
[compliments of Aiman who I spent one whole day with catching up. It was great fun! ^_^]
Teriyaki Chicken Don (far above)
Unagi Don (above)
[Dinner at Yisheng's Dad's store just outside Fong Seng. Most of us had these two dishes. Excellent excellent food, and very generous servings! Thanks Uncle! There was even home-made bak-kut-teh soup! It was very light, and boast of many herbs and extras to keep us growing boys strong and healthy! ;) ]
Kikyou Set at Waraku
[More Japanese food at Waraku where we had a nice birthday dinner for Lionel! Yums!]
[This is Mish's dog, Dashie, tied around my thigh while she went into Provenance bakery in Holland Village to get something for herself. He really is the cutest thing, and I didn't even mind the allergic reaction I got on my skin after playing with him.
The things we suffer for cuteness. Hehs.]
Chocolate Chip Scone & Custard Cream Cone
[These two wonderful creations are from Provenance too. These I had with Samuel, and it was our after dinner dessert. The scone was only SGD$1.00 and the cone was SGD$1.30! Very affordable yeah? I'm beginning to fall in love with that bakery...so many nice breads there...sigh]
Alex and his new goggles.
[This is what happens when you dare me to put up your pictures. For the world of me, I have no idea what's so exciting about buying a pair of goggles that you'd send me an MMS of yourself in them. It was quite the shocker though...so here's the embarrassing post I said I'd put up. Heehee...enjoy folks!]
Me & Me
[This is what happens when you're jealous of your Mom's new Sony Ericsson K770i...you begin to play (i.e. camwhore) with the 3.2 megapixel camera which your VGA Motorola L6 OBVIOUSLY does not have...this sucks, I want a new phone too! Argh!]
Seafood Paradise from Billy Bombers!
[compliments of Aiman who I spent one whole day with catching up. It was great fun! ^_^]
Teriyaki Chicken Don (far above)Unagi Don (above)
[Dinner at Yisheng's Dad's store just outside Fong Seng. Most of us had these two dishes. Excellent excellent food, and very generous servings! Thanks Uncle! There was even home-made bak-kut-teh soup! It was very light, and boast of many herbs and extras to keep us growing boys strong and healthy! ;) ]
Kikyou Set at Waraku[More Japanese food at Waraku where we had a nice birthday dinner for Lionel! Yums!]
[This is Mish's dog, Dashie, tied around my thigh while she went into Provenance bakery in Holland Village to get something for herself. He really is the cutest thing, and I didn't even mind the allergic reaction I got on my skin after playing with him.The things we suffer for cuteness. Hehs.]
Chocolate Chip Scone & Custard Cream Cone[These two wonderful creations are from Provenance too. These I had with Samuel, and it was our after dinner dessert. The scone was only SGD$1.00 and the cone was SGD$1.30! Very affordable yeah? I'm beginning to fall in love with that bakery...so many nice breads there...sigh]
Alex and his new goggles.[This is what happens when you dare me to put up your pictures. For the world of me, I have no idea what's so exciting about buying a pair of goggles that you'd send me an MMS of yourself in them. It was quite the shocker though...so here's the embarrassing post I said I'd put up. Heehee...enjoy folks!]
Me & Me[This is what happens when you're jealous of your Mom's new Sony Ericsson K770i...you begin to play (i.e. camwhore) with the 3.2 megapixel camera which your VGA Motorola L6 OBVIOUSLY does not have...this sucks, I want a new phone too! Argh!]
Well, that's about it for the month of November for me. I am quite sure there won't be much else happening the rest of this month as it's exam month. I'm going to head down to school to mug now. Wish me luck! ^_^
Good luck to all those having exams this month! JIAYOU!
PS: As Dan would point out, I think I have too many exclamation points in this post... (as always)
Good luck to all those having exams this month! JIAYOU!
PS: As Dan would point out, I think I have too many exclamation points in this post... (as always)
Friday, November 09, 2007
Stardust
Just finished reading the book...it was really nice. Here are some excerpts which I really liked (damn! the romantic in me strikes again):
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"But I almost took you through with me!" said Tristan, aghast. "I tried to, last night."
"Yes," she said. "Which only goes to prove that you are indeed a ninny, a lackwit, and a...a clodpoll."
"Dunderhead," offered Tristan. "You always used to like calling me a dunderhead. And an oaf."
"Well," she said, "you are all those things, and more besides. Why did you keep me waiting like that? I thought something terrible had happened to you."
"I'm sorry," he told her. "I won't leave you again."
"No," she said, seriously and with certainty, "you will not."
His hand found hers, then. They walked, hand in hand, through the market.
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I love the familiar banter between Tristan and Yvaine...sigh... =)
Now to watch the movie...sighz...
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Courage Trumps Pride Everytime
I'm glad I reached out again...it was a good feeling.
It wasn't too hard, and it felt good knowing that it was still there. It never really left, and I could feel the reciprocity as well. Things should be okay again... ^_^
The care and concern were still there...as how friends should care and be concerned for each other.
It wasn't too hard, and it felt good knowing that it was still there. It never really left, and I could feel the reciprocity as well. Things should be okay again... ^_^
The care and concern were still there...as how friends should care and be concerned for each other.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
Old School TIBS Bus
I woke up early today and took a nice bus ride down to Depot. My brother was with me, and he was on his way to church. We got on bus service 855, and I was amazed that it was one of those old school TIBS buses! ^_^
Check it out!
Check out the retro bell! All grey and tiny-buttoned. LOL.
The old school window clip thingy...you needed to depress both clips on the left and right of the window to get it to open. Troublesome, but excellent retro material. ^_^
Check out the old school PVC seats! My bro and I commented that seats in the past were so much smaller, and that sorta entailed that people were smaller? HAhaha..maybe it's just that we're two fatties. Heh.
The floor is classic. I don't know what you call this pattern, but I've always thought it was 'pimple-something'. Well...yeah, it was a blast riding in that blast from the past...literally. =P
Wonderful wonderful wonderful trip down memory lane...whee... ^_^
Check it out!
Check out the retro bell! All grey and tiny-buttoned. LOL.
The old school window clip thingy...you needed to depress both clips on the left and right of the window to get it to open. Troublesome, but excellent retro material. ^_^
Check out the old school PVC seats! My bro and I commented that seats in the past were so much smaller, and that sorta entailed that people were smaller? HAhaha..maybe it's just that we're two fatties. Heh.
The floor is classic. I don't know what you call this pattern, but I've always thought it was 'pimple-something'. Well...yeah, it was a blast riding in that blast from the past...literally. =P
Wonderful wonderful wonderful trip down memory lane...whee... ^_^
Thursday, October 04, 2007
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Coloured Threads
The feelings placed in those threads are now weak.
The intention behind the weaving is now frail.
He does not know why the weave was made...
Vague memories, light and airy, like a meringue hovers gently at the edges of his mind.
Teal, sky blue and forest green intertwine into a simple, yet strong mesh of purpose.
But it now lays half finished in Timbuk2, in darkness, behind metal teeth which keep it from the light.
Almost as if seeing it would create that aftertaste once more.
Hated and desired, all at the same time.
The 'twang' of the middle ground is symbolised by the blasted mesh,
"Curses! I did it again!" shouts that little voice of I-did-it-again-ness.
Should it be finished? Or should stay that way...it is pretty, but still...
You know...
*annoyed*
The intention behind the weaving is now frail.
He does not know why the weave was made...
Vague memories, light and airy, like a meringue hovers gently at the edges of his mind.
Teal, sky blue and forest green intertwine into a simple, yet strong mesh of purpose.
But it now lays half finished in Timbuk2, in darkness, behind metal teeth which keep it from the light.
Almost as if seeing it would create that aftertaste once more.
Hated and desired, all at the same time.
The 'twang' of the middle ground is symbolised by the blasted mesh,
"Curses! I did it again!" shouts that little voice of I-did-it-again-ness.
Should it be finished? Or should stay that way...it is pretty, but still...
You know...
*annoyed*
Saturday, September 22, 2007
Unhappy
"...you're such a solid presence..."
I am?
Recently, I haven't been feeling really solid. It's really hard...I think I finally understand how it's like to be one tiny person, carrying a facade meant for 100 people. I usually can do it, and I think I do it pretty well, but now, I just feel as if everything is sliding away from me. It really sucks...
I'm feeling small, but it feels as if I need to be bigger...bigger for everyone, bigger for myself. And the worse part is, I know it's totally just a personal issue, and no one is really needing me to carry anything for them. I just hate that people have to see me like this...and even when I do allow them to see me in this state, I know they may not fully understand, or I know that I do not want to burden them by making them worry about me...
I was up at my favourite/secret spot just now...it has been such a long time since I've been up there. Really peaceful and serene, but when I tried to calm myself down, it was really difficult. The cool night air was blowing all around me, cooling me down from my evening run, and the sight of city lights was beautiful as always. Yet, I could not tame the turmoil that lurched around inside.
I then tried to flow with it, but that didn't really work either.
I am feeling slightly lost...
Where is my sky...where is my strength...where is my...everything...
Argh...
I am?
Recently, I haven't been feeling really solid. It's really hard...I think I finally understand how it's like to be one tiny person, carrying a facade meant for 100 people. I usually can do it, and I think I do it pretty well, but now, I just feel as if everything is sliding away from me. It really sucks...
I'm feeling small, but it feels as if I need to be bigger...bigger for everyone, bigger for myself. And the worse part is, I know it's totally just a personal issue, and no one is really needing me to carry anything for them. I just hate that people have to see me like this...and even when I do allow them to see me in this state, I know they may not fully understand, or I know that I do not want to burden them by making them worry about me...
I was up at my favourite/secret spot just now...it has been such a long time since I've been up there. Really peaceful and serene, but when I tried to calm myself down, it was really difficult. The cool night air was blowing all around me, cooling me down from my evening run, and the sight of city lights was beautiful as always. Yet, I could not tame the turmoil that lurched around inside.
I then tried to flow with it, but that didn't really work either.
I am feeling slightly lost...
Where is my sky...where is my strength...where is my...everything...
Argh...
Friday, September 14, 2007
High School Muscial Week
This week was High School Musical Week for me. I had a lot of fun singing the songs to myself, and annoying my friends in various settings. Like in project meetings, study sessions in the PA room, and even during my first AGM as part of the 33rd MC for NUSPA. Wahahaha.
This is the song I like best from HSM2 (mostly because I can hit all the keys...they sang one octave lower mah..hehe). Anyway, the week's almost at an end, so I can stop singing all the songs (and torturing all my friends).
I was so crazy last weekend I even went to search out the lyrics for the tracks I really liked, and even reformatted them in Word, and printed them out to carry around with me. Hehe. Siao right? ^_^
This is the song I like best from HSM2 (mostly because I can hit all the keys...they sang one octave lower mah..hehe). Anyway, the week's almost at an end, so I can stop singing all the songs (and torturing all my friends).
I was so crazy last weekend I even went to search out the lyrics for the tracks I really liked, and even reformatted them in Word, and printed them out to carry around with me. Hehe. Siao right? ^_^
Saturday, September 08, 2007
FREAKING MAD...
Disclaimer: This post contains strong language, and doesn't display me at my best. Please refrain from reading this if you feel strongly about profanities/vulgarities etc.
This is it...the final straw...I think I've had it with this shit of a tuition kid.
The fucker calls me on Wednesday night to say that he cannot make it for my Thursday afternoon class. This is because his father is supposedly arriving early in Singapore (Thursday, instead of the previously said Friday). After a slightly heated debate with the fucker (hey, I mean he interrupted me during Hairspray, so yeah..I was miffed), I called his guardian to confirm whether or not his father was REALLY coming to Singapore at all. Apparently, there was a lot of miscommunication, and she couldn't confirm with me one bit. So in the end, he said that the only time he had for class was Sunday. Of course, we were still talking about Thursday's class yeah? So, I said, sure thing, Sunday, 2pm it is then.
Now...this is what happened next. I was getting ready for my class with him today (yes, there was another class today, Saturday, which was not mentioned). So since we did not discuss it, I am right to assume that there was no change to that timing. I even sent him an SMS on Thursday, stating that our remaining classes for the rest of the week, would be on Sat (11-1) and Sun (2-4). This fucker, then has the cheek to message me (like 30mins ago), to CHECK whether I was coming for class. And then he adamantly insists that I should have understood that today's class was included in the 'discussion' we had on Wednesday night.
His argument was totally NOT LOGICAL, and he even had the audacity to call me 'STUPID' for not understanding that he meant to include Saturday's class into our 'discussion' as well!
I'm going down for my class with him tmr, and since his father will be there as well, I will gladly DESTROY him. EVERYTHING about him will be torn to shreds, and I will make sure that he DIES (unfortunately, not LITERALLY). How can a person be soooo UNMOTIVATED? I don't even understand.
When I have the time, I shall be reflective and contemplate which parts of him, in me, I really hate, then I can do some self-improvement as well. As for now, I've pretty much had it with this bastard, and I don't think I want to have anything to do with him anymore.
I think I will call Mrs Soh to complain a bit. Sigh...
This is it...the final straw...I think I've had it with this shit of a tuition kid.
The fucker calls me on Wednesday night to say that he cannot make it for my Thursday afternoon class. This is because his father is supposedly arriving early in Singapore (Thursday, instead of the previously said Friday). After a slightly heated debate with the fucker (hey, I mean he interrupted me during Hairspray, so yeah..I was miffed), I called his guardian to confirm whether or not his father was REALLY coming to Singapore at all. Apparently, there was a lot of miscommunication, and she couldn't confirm with me one bit. So in the end, he said that the only time he had for class was Sunday. Of course, we were still talking about Thursday's class yeah? So, I said, sure thing, Sunday, 2pm it is then.
Now...this is what happened next. I was getting ready for my class with him today (yes, there was another class today, Saturday, which was not mentioned). So since we did not discuss it, I am right to assume that there was no change to that timing. I even sent him an SMS on Thursday, stating that our remaining classes for the rest of the week, would be on Sat (11-1) and Sun (2-4). This fucker, then has the cheek to message me (like 30mins ago), to CHECK whether I was coming for class. And then he adamantly insists that I should have understood that today's class was included in the 'discussion' we had on Wednesday night.
His argument was totally NOT LOGICAL, and he even had the audacity to call me 'STUPID' for not understanding that he meant to include Saturday's class into our 'discussion' as well!
I'm going down for my class with him tmr, and since his father will be there as well, I will gladly DESTROY him. EVERYTHING about him will be torn to shreds, and I will make sure that he DIES (unfortunately, not LITERALLY). How can a person be soooo UNMOTIVATED? I don't even understand.
When I have the time, I shall be reflective and contemplate which parts of him, in me, I really hate, then I can do some self-improvement as well. As for now, I've pretty much had it with this bastard, and I don't think I want to have anything to do with him anymore.
I think I will call Mrs Soh to complain a bit. Sigh...
Sunday, August 26, 2007
I can cook Chinese!
I cooked dinner today. I managed to put together a not-too-shabby Chinese style dinner for my brother and Alex! Quite proud of myself sia...here are some pictures (courtesy of Mr Lim).
This dish doesn't look like much, but it sure tasted good. I fried snow peas, fresh shitake mushrooms and prawns together, and the only seasoning I used was vegetarian oyster sauce. It looked a little...errr...brown, after I added the sauce, but it smelled and tasted great! My brother and Alex both approved of this yummy dish. The snow peas were surprisingly easy to cook. You just need to rinse them and stir fry them in some oil until they all puff up and look plump.
The fresh mushrooms are exceptionally juicy lor...I don't think I will ever truly like dried mushrooms ever again. Wahahaha...
Now this omelette was an excellent lesson for me. Here's what I learned about long bean omelette frying:
1. Stir fry the chopped long beans lightly in oil first to cook them thoroughly. This brings out the sweetness and makes it easier to combine the flavours of the beans and the egg.
2. Mix the fried beans into the beaten egg mixture to ensure that the beans are evenly spread throughout the egg mixture. (Failure to do so results in the above omelette - looks like the Earth where the beans make up the land, and the egg make up the water)
3. Use a non-stick pan to aid in omelette frying and do so on medium heat.
4. Flipping the omelette takes skills and practice. Without these, you may end up 'chipping' off a piece of the omelette leaving less than round. (See above for 'chipped' omelette)
This picture is a bit blurry (blame the photographer...HAHAHA), but it's a sample of the soup I cooked. It's really easy to make yummy soup. Just boil dried ikan bilis in water until fragrant and the ikan bilis is soft. Then add a little salt (or in my case, I cheated and added one chicken stock cube). Add diced potatoes and carrots and boil till soft. Then roll minced meat (I used pork) into little balls to add to the soup. Voila! A hearty soup with lots of ingredients to chomp on! ^_^
This dish doesn't look like much, but it sure tasted good. I fried snow peas, fresh shitake mushrooms and prawns together, and the only seasoning I used was vegetarian oyster sauce. It looked a little...errr...brown, after I added the sauce, but it smelled and tasted great! My brother and Alex both approved of this yummy dish. The snow peas were surprisingly easy to cook. You just need to rinse them and stir fry them in some oil until they all puff up and look plump.The fresh mushrooms are exceptionally juicy lor...I don't think I will ever truly like dried mushrooms ever again. Wahahaha...
Now this omelette was an excellent lesson for me. Here's what I learned about long bean omelette frying:1. Stir fry the chopped long beans lightly in oil first to cook them thoroughly. This brings out the sweetness and makes it easier to combine the flavours of the beans and the egg.
2. Mix the fried beans into the beaten egg mixture to ensure that the beans are evenly spread throughout the egg mixture. (Failure to do so results in the above omelette - looks like the Earth where the beans make up the land, and the egg make up the water)
3. Use a non-stick pan to aid in omelette frying and do so on medium heat.
4. Flipping the omelette takes skills and practice. Without these, you may end up 'chipping' off a piece of the omelette leaving less than round. (See above for 'chipped' omelette)
This picture is a bit blurry (blame the photographer...HAHAHA), but it's a sample of the soup I cooked. It's really easy to make yummy soup. Just boil dried ikan bilis in water until fragrant and the ikan bilis is soft. Then add a little salt (or in my case, I cheated and added one chicken stock cube). Add diced potatoes and carrots and boil till soft. Then roll minced meat (I used pork) into little balls to add to the soup. Voila! A hearty soup with lots of ingredients to chomp on! ^_^
Three happy boys!
From left: Alex, Xing Wei and me!
From left: Alex, Xing Wei and me!
After dinner, I was trying to sharpen my knife (it's too blunt already...cannot cut things properly...). And while I was doing so, I managed to 'persuade' Alex to do the dishes and to hang my laundry! Wahaha...manipulative me! Heehee...
Here's proof:
I love cooking...what shall I cook next? Hmmm...
*think think think*
Here's proof:
I love cooking...what shall I cook next? Hmmm...
*think think think*
Saturday, August 25, 2007
GuildWars: Eye of the North
Today I delivered an ultimatum to my shit of a tuition kid. I'm sick and tired of setting aside time for his tuition sessions, only to have him cancel/postpone on me. Argh! I told him he's going to set the timing and then I'm going to appear regardless of whether he can make it or not. Yeah...
Anyway, onto cooler matters...
GUILDWARS: EYE OF THE NORTH!
This weekend is the preview weekend, and so far, it's been a blast! The new characters are looking cool and some of the new skills are not too bad. I'm trying to play as much of it as I can...don't think I can finish all the available quests though...ah well. Fortunately, they are letting us keep whatever we get during this preview period, so that means when the game actually starts on the 31st of this month, I will have a slight head start already! Woot!
Here are some screenshots from the new game:
From top:
Hot new Norn babe Jora,
Her possessed brother who cannot change back to human form,
Shamanistic ritual to summon ancient bear spirit
&
Ancient bear spirit (appropriately and unimaginatively) named......Bear.
Anyway, onto cooler matters...
GUILDWARS: EYE OF THE NORTH!
This weekend is the preview weekend, and so far, it's been a blast! The new characters are looking cool and some of the new skills are not too bad. I'm trying to play as much of it as I can...don't think I can finish all the available quests though...ah well. Fortunately, they are letting us keep whatever we get during this preview period, so that means when the game actually starts on the 31st of this month, I will have a slight head start already! Woot!
Here are some screenshots from the new game:
From top:
Hot new Norn babe Jora,
Her possessed brother who cannot change back to human form,
Shamanistic ritual to summon ancient bear spirit
&
Ancient bear spirit (appropriately and unimaginatively) named......Bear.
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