No More

I don’t know if you will ever find someone to love you like I did; but I sincerely hope that you will someday. 

I hope for myself that I will find once again, someone that made me feel magical like how you made me feel when I first met you. I will never forget the day when I first laid eyes on you, because it was a perfect day for me. 

I followed my heart and never looked back. I honestly hope I can have that once again. 

Holy Crap! I'm 30 This Year!

So right, this year was supposed to be the year that I would go for a long-ish Europe trip with my friends. However, my mom's bout of illness had me thinking that maybe the money would be better used as an emergency fund, you know, in case she'd need extra money or anything. So I decided to shelve the trip and just focus on putting aside money for my mom.

A week ago, my friends decided to give me a surprise. Unbeknownst (this is quickly becoming one of my favourite words, I swear) to me, my friends started a small campaign to raise funds for me so that they could sponsor my Europe trip this year. So it was supposed to be like a birthday present to me...

O... M... F... G...

At the point of my receiving the news, we were already at 13 people sponsoring everything, from airfare to accommodation, and even having SGD$1000 leftover as spending money for me. I was speechless, and I did not know what to say, or do. It didn't seem right to accept the money, but it also seemed incorrect to reject their goodwill. How does one say no to such a grand gesture? Well, the short answer to such a question is... you do not.
(PS: I think the number of people has increased to 16-17 people. All of you are crazy... crazy amazing man...)

Maybe I did something right, or maybe I impacted these people more than I could ever truly know. The bottom line is that, these people whom I call my friends are banding together to create something magical for me. And I guess I can only be touched and moved, and ever so grateful.

I am still thinking about how I can show my appreciation for these people, and I am planning to do something like a live blog/vlog thing. I want to be able to try and capture the entire trip through media, social and otherwise. Daily? Or post-trip release? Argh... can't decide!!!

Anyone has any ideas? =P

Babamon & Hamham

Yeah...

Things are finally working out...

Pretty fucking amazing... =)

Do I Miss You?

Em asked if I missed you...

Of course I do, but that's all I can do...for now anyways...

Parted

It really hurts. It hurts so bad.

To know that I can't cook for you anymore.
To know that I can't see your smile anymore.
To know that I can't hear your voice anymore.
To know that I can't feel your embrace anymore.
To know that I can't watch you play video games anymore.
To know that I can't kiss your lips anymore.
To know that I pick the scabs off your back anymore.
To know that I can't tell you everything I feel anymore.
To know that I can't say 'I love you' anymore.
To know that I can't hear you say you love me back anymore.
To know that I have to be strong so that you can be strong.
To know that I have to hold back my feelings, words and thoughts so that I won't affect you anymore.

It hurts.

I still love you a lot, but I wish you only knew that it's possible to not be together and still love one another.

I only wish.

It hurts...

2012 into 2013

As I sit in my living room nursing a headache that has persisted since yesterday's failed lancing-lancing outing, I listen to the people screaming 'Happy New Year' and the fading 'thuds' of fireworks going off. I think I will take this time to write about what I am thankful for at this very moment:

1. A home that has water, electricity and gas.

2. A fridge that is full so that I always have something for myself and for others who come to my home.

3. A computer which allows me to surf the Internet, watch YouTube, download 'content', and write this post.

4. Family, whom I have come to realise are always there for me, just by being there for me.

5. Friends, who will always have my back, love me, hug me, kiss me and tell me things are going to be okay.

6. Kakis, who teach me to untap my lands first, and always remind me about the intricacies of the combat step and the 'stack' AND the importance of announcing my triggers. Lol

7. People, who come into my life to give me experiences that I will never forget, and teach me lessons I will always hold close to my heart.

8. Lovers, who make me stronger and remind me of the person I want to, and can, be.

9. The universe, for always planning things out for me as I struggle in this strange place we called Earth.

10. A heart, body, mind and soul to experience the wonder that is all around me.

Here's to a crazy tough 2012, and I am looking forward to a challenging, amazing 2013. :)

Secret Santa!!!

So right, in my new office, apparently they play this game called Secret Santa. So everyone is assigned a 'san-tee' and they are that person's Secret Santa. So from now till the office Christmas party, we are all supposed to drop little hints for our 'san-tee' and on the day of the party, we should all be able to guess who our Secret Santa is.

Here are the gifts and clues I have received thus far...

No. 1

So we are on the 'same team'...kinda? Hmmm.... there are too many teams here in my office. Damn it!

No. 2

This, I received today! Holy Crap!!!!! I don't really snack that much, but my Santa really outdid him/herself today. Stuffed my stocking full of stuff! O_O

Here's the before shot:

Unfortunately, I still have NO IDEA who it could be... ah well... Shall keep waiting for more clues then. =)

*excited*